Fall into God's heart

I started school on Monday, and I am so thrilled to be back to school! It's been three years, - three LONG years. Actually, the past three years went by really fast. Praise the Lord for making the way for me to go back to school at the perfect time.

My English class is so fun, my ASL 1 class is easy - so far. My Deaf Culture studies class is long and... long. But it's so full of information about the Deaf Culture in America. I'm amazed at how much I didn't know about the Deaf Culture though I'm a part of it! It's awesome.

There's not much to tell you about, but.. yeah. I'm SO content where I am right now, knowing that God WILL meet and provide for my needs. Whether if I'm in a courtship right now or not, I'm so content. What is so important to me, -as should be for every God-fearing, Christ-following Christians- is my relationship with Jesus be right and pleasing to Him, continually growing, learning new things everyday, ever-transforming to be more like Christ every moment. That is the number one priority to me, everything else comes second, regardless. {A person can't take care of others if he/she is sick him/herself.}

I know because I seek Him first, He blesses me with all the people in my life, including the one I'm in a courtship with. He and I are best friends and I'm so blessed in our friendship, knowing that we are true in our motivation, wanting to please God, honoring Him, putting Him in the very center of our relationship. Nothing will succeed without God being in the center.

Matthew 6:33 tells us that IF and when we seek God first and foremost, He WILL bless us with all things we need, even want (according to His Will.. not contradictory to His Will.)

To think, I waited three years to go to college... I can see why God needed me to wait three years, without these three years, I definitely wouldn't be the person I am today. Without the wait, I wouldn't grow in Christ, learning so much about God, applying His Word to my life, allowing God to transform me, surrendering to Him daily. It is really awesome to see how much God have changed me, my ways of thought and my life for the future, all for His glory, His purpose. I am eternally grateful for what Jesus had done on the Cross, I am eternally thankful for all Jesus did to give me a new life and an hope, knowing that I have everything I need in Jesus Christ.

Lately, I've been learning to and allowing myself to fall into God's heart, allowing God to show me His romance. Words can not describe the experience itself. You must experience it yourself. It's breathtaking, the experience of falling deeper and deeper into God's heart, seeing how the whole creation shouts of His glory. Beautiful.

Verse for the day: Psalm 150:6 " Let everything that has breath praise the LORD. Praise the LORD! "

K <3

A new chapter...

It's time for my new chapter to start! It's been starting for past 2 weeks, but.. I'm starting college tomorrow! I'm getting some butterflies in my stomach, but surprisingly, I'm not all that nervous like I thought I would be.

It's so amazing to see how God works in my life! Things are starting to fall in place, things are rolling together soooooo smoothly!!!!
I'm starting college without a bump in the road, surprisingly because I'm so used to bumps in the road. But God have been planning for this so it goes together just perfectly, no bumps, no strife, no conflicts! I'm taking 4 classes (15 credits), and some told me that it is quite a lot. Of course, to me, it's never enough, hahahaha! I know I can be so ambitious sometimes, I wanted to go for at least 20 or more credit, but, I've been also told that to take it easy my first quarter of college. So I accept my friends' advice and take it easy to start with. ;) I HOPE to get more credits next quarter. But.. God's Will be done! Praise the Lord!!!!
The number 1 and 2 things I'm so excited about this quarter, I'm starting ASL! (Even though I know ASL already, it's required for my major and I want to learn what I don't know about ASL)
and I'm going to be taking Tennis class!!!!!! I SO miss tennis! I decided to take this class to re-learn some tennis, and brush up on my skills and to learn new techniques.

I guess this is a long and huge chapter in my life actually, because there is another thing happening in my life right now, and to be honest, I'm quite excited about it because I've been praying for this for a long time. To clarify what I've been praying about, I prayed for my husband (and still am), and that when God's timing is right, we would be in a proper relationship, according to the Bible. No, I won't say who he is until the time's right. I'm excited to see what God has planned, to see His amazing works in my life and in those around me.

I'm excited about this chapter in my life, because I know there will be so many things happening, and God's the Author, always has been!!!

One more thing!!! My dearest sister Dana, is leaving to Dominican Republic tomorrow!! She will be there for 9 months, setting up a new deaf school. She's doing God's works there and I know she will be ABUNDANTLY blessed for her willingness to serve!
Those who are reading my blogs, please support her in prayers!
I know I am going to miss her so much, (I already am missing her!) God willing, I will be going to Dominican Republic in December, during my school Christmas break. If not, that's alright because God's plan is perfect.

Verses for the day: Proverbs 3:5-8 "Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge Him, and He shall direct your paths. Do not be wise in your own eyes; Fear the Lord and depart from evil. It will be health to your flesh, and strength to your bones."

Much love,
K

A time alone..

There's so much to say...

First of all, I'm going to miss my younger sister so much. She's off to college! I'm off to college too, but I'll be living at home, and she will be living on a campus, at an out-of-state college. I already miss her just thinking she's leaving home... Of course she's always welcome to come back home whenever, but.. she'll be living somewhere else. I'm lost without my sister -well, not really - just that I'll miss her SOOO much!

Then I'll be alone this weekend. But I won't be alone. God always is with me, and He will be with me this weekend! I guess I have this opporunity to spend time with God, to seek His heart even so much more. I'm not the type of person who likes to be alone for an extended period of time, but I know I will survive this weekend! God sent me friends to keep me company, either over the phone or instant messaging. Praise the Lord, He is so good ALL THE TIME!!

Oh! The title made me think of one more thing.. I guess I should share it since it came to my mind.
I came out of my high school years, Junior and Senior years, broken and ugly. God took me and transformed and molded me, making me whole and beautiful. Only because of Lord Jesus Christ I was made whole, with a new life that is eternal. I learned that I am not alone and never am, because God is with me always. I learned to make Him my first Love, and my first Friend. I don't know why but during these times I didn't have a friend, a friend who I could really trust and express to. God taught me that He wants to hear all I want to say. I gladly can say that I learned that and now I gladly tell God everything, -He knows everything anyways but He WANTS me to tell Him anyways- He wants to listen. I learned to be honest with God, telling Him what bothers me and found myself looking in God's heart, seeing what bothers Him, and what He wants.
Now I'm blessed with beautiful friends, who I can truly trust. Sometimes we have to go through a time where we're alone -as we look at it- so we can look up to God and seek Him more, to find ourselves blessed.

I don't know my future, but I do know this, God's plan is perfect, He works out good for those who love Him. He honors people who seek Him first and foremost, giving their whole heart to God. God is God who blesses, He wants to bless, He loves to bless. But He can't if we don't let Him.

I surely can say that I am being so blessed right now, it's so amazing to look back on what God did in my life and see myself transformed.

Be blessed!!! Seek God!

Verse for the day: Matthew 6:33 "Seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, then all these things will be added to you."

<333 K

Finding "The One" over the Internet...

How many people do you know met their "the one" over the Internet, through dating service or forums?

I admit I know a lot of people who did.
So, what's wrong with it?? Even Christians do it.
For some reason it really bothers me that especially Christians do that. Christians? They should be depending on God to meet their every need, trusting that God will bring it to them, (although they should be doing their part in prayers and seeking God first) and yet, they go through the Internet Dating services, labelled Christian or not.

I never went fully through the Internet Dating services, though I did sign up for free trials, etc. I never felt comfortable doing it all the way because I don't know the person I'm talking to. Is he really who he says he claims to be? And there's always that risk of actually meeting them in person after chatting so much on the Internet. One get to know all they know by what they say. They don't get to know them in person from the very beginning, getting all the wrong concept of how the person actually is, how they react to situations and whatever else.

After more discomfort I had, I stopped. But then there was this forum I frequented. I met a guy.... (oh boy... this is an embarrassing story..) and we were all lovey dovey, but I didn't KNOW him. Just what he said. I went to tell someone about it, that I was so in love and want to go and meet him. Only the problem was that he was over on the other side of the world, literally.

My dearest older sister in Christ said something that made me realize... "God is great. He created the WHOLE universe.. Don't you think He's great enough to bring you and your husband together IN PERSON, without using the Internet?" This stopped me in my tracks, and I realized, that's true! God had Isaac meet his wife, He used Abraham's servant to go and get Isaac's wife and brought her to him. God brought them together. Mind you, there was no such thing as "Internet" back then... How do you think people met the one God had intended for them? God brought them together!

That's why it really bothers me when people say "Oh, God used the Internet to bring us together!" I say, "baloney!" God will bring you your "the one" in person, without even using the Internet!

I can say this for myself, I know I have not/will not meet my "the one" over the Internet! God is great, GREAT enough to bring me my husband in person.
He created the whole universe... Earth is a small, little dot in the whole universe, and isn't He great enough to bring 2 people together that He intends to be together?

DEPEND on God, Trust in Him, KNOW that He is GREAT, that He is THE Creator!
Stand in awe of Him, His glory!
<33 K

Be romanced

Be romanced by God!

I'm being romanced by God. I find myself falling deeper and deeper into God's heart. He's showing me how much more things are reflecting God's heart.
My head's spinning with God's love. I'm being revealed the Beauty of God. His essence. And how amazing God made us women, we women are Beauty, reflecting God's Beauty, our essence is Beauty.

SIGHHHHH
That's all I can say for the day.

Verse for the day Proverbs 17:27

This branch is so in love,
K

Returning to School

I had a meeting with my counselor at SFCC, and it's all set for the Fall quarter!! I'm sooo excited to be starting school again after THREE years! Praise the Lord!

Now I have to research which university to go to and what credit/course is accepted. I'm researching Gallaudet University and Western Oregon University.
They both have their Pros and Cons. I really want to transfer for Sophmore year, but if necessary, I'm willing to wait until Junior year. No worries, God's plan is perfect, how can I complain? I just need to be patient throughout the whole process. :d

My counselor is researching Gallaudet and see what course I'm needing to take here, and what is equivalent to their courses. The whole process is making me quite stressed because I want to prioritize my time at SFCC so not one class I take is a waste of time. I don't want to lose any credit and have all the extra unnecessary credits for my major.

I realized that I have the gift of language, I just absolutely love languages and how they are used. I'm majoring in ASL Linguistics, but I will want to study other languages. I'm currently thinking about minoring in Spanish, and God knows what other languages I'd want to pick up on later on in the near future. I don't know why but I just love love love languages, I want to learn all there is to learn about language. Well.. God is the One who created language and scattered it and look at how many languages there are out there now! Imagine this, one language, every one spoke it, then it became so many languages....... If you know your Bible, you will know when God made many languages. I'll give you an hint if you don't know where to find it... ~Genesis 11:1-9~

There have been studies about where all the language came from, and sciencists traced them all back to the Tower of Babel time, and found similarities in many different language all way across the world. What similarites, I'm not sure, but it's amazing how we all could've been speaking the one and same language all over the world, but.. because of men's pride, wanting to be equal or better than God, God scattered them across the world.

I realize that too that I love knowledge, I love learning new things and I continually seek to gain more knowledge. But! Knowledge is nothing if I don't have Jesus in my heart. And knowledge IN heart is better than knowledge in brain. Knowledge of God's Word and doing it is the best, better than knowing God's Word but don't apply to self.

Verse for the day: Proverbs 16:20
"He who heeds the word wisely will find good, and whoever trusts in the LORD, happy is he."

Blessings,
K :d

Captivating...

I'm currently reading a book borrowed from my older sister.
Captivating by John and Stasi Eldredge

I'm only in the second chapter now. That book really speaks to women's heart. I learned some things about women, why God created Woman and what Woman shows about God. Women longs for three things: -To be romanced, to be an irreplaceable role in a great adventure, and to be the Beauty. How true, even though women learned to supress their desire that God created us with because of the world's view on how women should be. I have fanastized about being swept off my feet so many time, because that is how God created us women. We want to be loved. That's the picture of God. He wants to be loved. That's why He gave us the first and greatest commandment, to love Him with all of our soul, heart, mind and strength. Mark 12:29-30

It's amazing how God spent time making man, and when He was finished, He saw something that wasn't good. It wasn't good for man to be alone. Strange... But very so true. So God created woman from man. Woman was the last creation He created, the final masterpiece, the crown.
Think it this way... The earth would've not done without woman. Without woman, the creation wasn't complete.

And when God created woman, He created woman to reflect His heart. His romantic, passionate heart. God wants to be wanted. Just like woman wants to be wanted. God wants to be sought after, like woman wants to be sought after! I learned a quote and actually understood it this time, "Hell hath no fury like a woman scorned." That's just how God is when He isn't chosen. He is a Jealous God. He wants to be wanted, to be put first, to be sought after with the whole heart of the person pursuing. Just like a woman.

The whole creation declares the glory of God!!!

:d K

The verse for the day: Mark 12:29-31

First blog

It's been a long while since I first signed up and now I've finally decided to at least post my first blog..
It's going to be more like a diary/journal kind of thing as I go through my journey of life.
Life in Christ, that is. I don't know what to say or whatever since I don't usually journal, ever. I only journal when I need it.
Hahaha, anyways..

I'm a devout Christian, who is totally in love with Jesus. Yes, I do have my flaws, but what human doesn't? Jesus loves me the way I am, and He wants me to grow in Him. I'm more than glad to do so. Although there are times where I do feel inadequate, but I'm not going to let my emotions control me, instead, I control them through action and renewing of my mind using God's Word!

Just a short blog here. As I said, I don't usually journal.
But I will at least make an effort to journal about my journey through life.
I assure you that it will be boring at times. I hope it will be exciting at other times so you don't fall asleep reading my boring blogs. Haha.

Toodles!
:d K