Once a life

In a blink of eye,
Things I once saw,
Fades away.

In a grip,
Things I once held onto so tight,
Slips through my fingers.

Dreams dreamt,
Wonders I once chased,
Are no more.

My breath is taken away,
My strong frame weakens,
My beauty becomes nothing.

My life which once was,
Is nothing more than dust.

Romance flames,
Extinguished.

Hopes strong,
Shattered.

Promises made,
Broken.

But there's only One,
Who gives me everlasting Romance,
Hopes that endures,
And Promises for me to claim as my own.

Whatever of my life,
Once had no purpose,
Now full of joy.

Just in a blink of eye,
Life returns.

Grip strengthens,
Dreams chases me,
My whole being revived.

But only once a life.
Like a flower,
Grows and withers.

Talk about being a foreigner

Wildwood Summer Project 2011

I must admit it I love being here.
But I am the foreigner here.

I've been spoiled. Being in such a haven as Gallaudet University, where everyone signs, where all deaf people are entitled to have equal access at cafeteria, at post office, and at students' account office. Especially in classroom with teachers.

I feel like I was yanked out, I mean, really yanked out of my haven.
I live in a house with 50 other people, and all of them hearing.
All the commotion here and I hardly know what's going on.

I know I'm being a little depressing but that is how I feel.
But I must admit I really have learned a lot since I got here 2 1/2 weeks ago.

I learned that people are more willing to talk about God and all the spiritual things than people in general believe.

I'm reading this book, "God Space" by Doug Pollock. Doug explained in the first chapter that if we are willing to create a God space, where people will feel safe to talk about God and spiritual things. However Doug explained that in order for us to be able to make God space for others, we must make a God space inside ourselves first, meaning we have to be willing to allow God set up opportunities at HIS own time. There then we are able to create a God space for others.

It's just amazing how God is teaching me, so much in such a short time recently.

I'm seeing what else the Lord is going to teach me in the next 7 weeks.
People, I'm in for a ride! (=

God bless!
~K

Only Jesus

I pray everyday that I grow more,
to love Jesus more,
to show people Jesus in my life,
and above all that I would
introduce at least
one person to Jesus.

I can say my life is not mediocre at all,
However it may seem mediocre,
I fight in wars daily,
Unseen battles fought hourly.

Through everything,
I cannot rely on human,
They can be my support,
Or be the ones who tear me down.

My heart and soul cries out for love,
For satisfaction,
for peace and above all,
For Jesus.

Why Jesus, you may ask.
Jesus, why?
He alone died for me
He alone can restore me.

Jesus alone can satisfy my heart and soul,
My complete peace is in Jesus
My complete hope is in Jesus,
And my whole life is Jesus.

I pray everyday that I grow more to be like Jesus.
Daily I desire Jesus more.

I love You Jesus.

Life

Life is life... You all might have heard of this from me from time to time.
But life happens, it is life.
How else do you describe life?
One breathes, one sees, one touches and go through things that is called "life".

It is so beautiful,
no matter how difficult things can get,
no matter how joyous things can get.

Life... Just saying it makes me think of what the Lord had done to me,
taking my life, crushing it and make it all new again.

Take my life?
Yep, my life is crushed and dead.
Only the life I have now is from the Lord, and it belongs to Him completely.

Sure I do go through ups and downs, that is a part of living here in this imperfect and dark world, but only through this life, I can thank the Lord more and more for His faithfulness and His grace.

There are times when I knew I failed miserably,
the light from the Lord reveals to me that I still have hope.

Certainly I am not perfect at all, I do not want to be perfect,
I just want to be blameless, without blemishes.

How I love life,
Because Jesus is my life,
Because my life is Jesus,
and life is beautiful.

<3
K

Summer 2010

So... Here I am midway through my summer vacation.

I have missed my family, my baby (a dog.. yeah..) and the land. I am truly blessed to have a place to call home. But know what? This home is not my permanent home. It is no where to be found here on Earth. My permanent and true home is with Yahweh, where Yeshua has a place made and planned out for me.

Being home has been wonderful. About a month in, I got to go to Dominican Republic for a mini mission trip. It was for almost exactly a week.
I truly enjoyed getting to know more of sisters and brothers in Christ in the group I traveled with. They have taught me a lot about myself and about the Lord. I am truly blessed by the people in the group and the trip will forever change my life, yet again! Upon returning, I am more grateful for little things, like toilet seat and hot showers, fresh running tap water that I can drink from and non-humidity.

I truly believe that everyone should go on a short-term mission trip, no matter how short of a short trip it might be, but to get to know the people in the country, to eat and sleep where real people eat and sleep, to see the real part of the country, not the tourist and "American" part of the country. To work with them and serve them. By seeing the people as they really are, we grow to love them and desire to bring them the wonderful Good News of Yeshua Christ.
When we become grateful, we see and know the blessings we really have, a relationship with Yeshua Christ and sisters and brothers in Christ.
Without a relationship with Yeshua, our life has no meaning.

Throughout the first half of the summer break, I learned something. I was hurt and was sad from time to time. But I am not worried because the Lord is with me and I am comforted by the promise the Lord has given me, "Have I not commanded you? Be strong and of good courage; do not be afraid, nor be dismayed, for the LORD your God is with you wherever you go." [Joshua 1:9]
The Lord is GOOD ALL THE TIME. Not most of time, not almost always, not sometimes, but ALL the time!

I know I have made my mistakes in my life for the past year, and I reflect on them to learn and know what to do in similar situations. Praise the Lord that I want to learn from them.

I am looking forward to what the Lord has planned for the school year of 10-11. I bet it is going to be a great year! For me and for my friends!

Over the first half of summer, I also learned a lot of what the Lord has planned for my life and I am very thrilled to live out His plan!! I have only seen glimpses of the Lord plan in my life and I look forward to seeing the rest of the plan! There is nothing else I want in my life, but to have a relationship with Yeshua and live out His WONDERFUL and perfect plan. I do not want to take one step out of His will. He will show me what I need to do and I have nothing to worry about. I am so excited!

My friends, you know who you are, I miss you so very much! I look forward to the day we meet again and the times we will spend together being ourselves and glorify the Lord together! Let us praise the Lord!
PRAISE THE LORD!

Mucho amo!
Besos y abrazos!
-K

Mother's Day 2010

Here I am sitting where I am, not at home, not at school, but somewhere very far from my home.

Today is the Mother's Day, and I do not get to see my mom this day. This is the first Mother's Day in my whole life that I do not get to see her and give her a hug and thank her for being my Mommy.

My mom have gone through a lot growing up herself then she went through even so more raising 3 beautiful girls. I know that without her lead in my life, I would not be the same lady I am today. She was very patient when I was not, very kind when I was at my worst, very gracious when I was terrible.

I thank the Lord for His gift to me, Yeshua and a wonderful mother, my Mommy.

Teresa Kay,
My Mommy,
I love you so very much.
See you soon!!! <3

Your little girl,
KL

Two Breaths

One day, you are born.
You took your first breath.

The next day, you are on your death bed
Taking your last breath.

All in the between,
Life happened.
You took many breaths.

With each breath,
life is remembered,
then forgotten.

From your first breath
To your last.


Your life is just a twilight in the sky
Quickly passing.

On your death bed,
You ask, "What comes next?"

You remember your first breath.
Now you are taking your last.

You remember your each breath,
Each wound,
Each happiness.


All you have seen in your life
Is now passing by your eyes.

Grasping at each of them,
They fall through your fingers.

Each breath
Brings forth a vapor.


One day only brings the next.
Time falls through your fingers,
In vain, you attempt to stop it.


As you exhale,
Your chest falls,
Only to not rise again.

Your soul falls from your body,
You try to grasp your body,
Willing yourself to live.

Falling,
You wonder where you are going.

In two breaths,
Your life came and went.